I missed a couple weeks of this and I hate that
I had been really doing well with my TILT and then I missed last week and then the week after. Honestly, last week I missed many things. I finally hit a brick wall. I had been working working super hard, playing playing super hard and then BAM last week it just hit me. I was so tired and I didn’t want to be anything to anyone or do anything. That isn’t really like me.
I have learned a great deal about introverts and extroverts over the years and typically I get energized by being around people and socializing but the way I felt last week was very introverted in a way as I just wanted to be alone, in the quiet and recharge. But last week…..I just COULDN”T do it.
I had made plans with a couple people and had to cancel and I had no motivation to do anything. The only time I do get like that is usually only when something really devastating has happened and then I have to take a couple of days to soothe myself so I can jump back up and move to the next step but nothing like that had happened last week and all I wanted to do was crawl in my bed at the end of the day and not talk or clean or do anything but binge watch crappy tv that keeps my mind numb. I had so much to do to get ready for my sister and brother in law but I decided it will all work itself out in the end and we will figure it out as we go.
Thankfully Michael has put in the time to get stuff done and will continue to do so this weekend and hopefully things will be ready when they get here in 9 days. Anyway I am back on track and feeling more like myself this week. I am back on track with my morning bible study and workout. Eating healthily and getting stuff done at work.
I love the feeling of being accomplished and starting my day with exercise for my mind, body and soul is always something I love.
I love people. I really do. I like conversations and perspectives and laughing so hard your face and stomach hurts and just feeling their nearness and comforting and being comforted. We are such complex creatures and sans some of the drama that comes with relationships, I really just love these friendships and people that I have in my life.
I love our travels. We have been from the beach to the mountains to the desert to the woods and everywhere in between. Last weekend was one of our last travel weekends for a while. We have a bunch of stuff coming up locally and honestly I am not sure if my budget or schedule can handle any more trips for a minute. I am certain our wanderlust spirit will kick in and we will find somewhere to go but our next “scheduled” trip is our cruise in November. We do have some of my very favorite local things coming up. Arts in the Heart, Miracle Mile Walk and some new fundraiser/festivals this year. I also am looking forward to seeing one of Michael’s MTW alumni in a dinner theater show at Ft. Gordon. Although we will be home, we will still be very busy and my sister and brother in law will be here too.
i love houseboats and honestly I will have one soon. I love karaoke and it was so much fun to sing to an audience as much as I suck and I love dancing oh my gosh do I love dancing. I never get to dance in public anymore because I am old and don’t go to clubs or weddings or wherever it is that you dance besides your living room and this weekend I got to dance on a houseboat in the middle of the lake.
I love our new book for book club and I SWEAR you will love it too. I pre-ordered it and bookclub had read her previous book but even OPRAH picked it. Love Warrior is hitting all my broken spots so far and hope I get to the healing. A ton of expectations and disappointments.
I love how protective Rich is of me. I think he always wanted to protect me and I wouldn’t let him but he really tries so hard to take care of me. I need to be a little less feminist…independent…not sure what but let him take care of me. I am strong but I don’t need to prove that every second.
I love that I got to step out of my comfort zone this week and do something that scared me. Do the things that scare you.
I really love you all so much and super excited that my sister will be here but have to honestly say that it has been super hard to not have people in my village to go to this last week. I miss you friends.